Fighting against change is a good thing though. I think that in the process, no matter how it's done, fighting any form of change allows you to be you.
For me I've learned that when I fight change it's usually out of fear. Sometimes this fear is rational and other times it's completely irrational and makes me think "what the hell" at some point down the road.
Fighting change, no matter what is or how we do it is a way of what's in our heart making it's way to the surface -- I'm talking about both irrational and rational reactions.
I think that some people, or at least I know this is true for me, irrational reactions to change means that whatever is going on in the heart hasn't been given a chance to show.
This past semester was my first semester as a hospitality student. I loved it; it was new and exciting and I was thriving in this new environment. About a month and a half into the semester one of my instructors forwarded me an email. This email was about a summer internship at a national park.
I thought about it for a few days and then decided to just forget it. Why do the internship? I would miss family reunions and vacations. I would be going alone. I wasn't sure I'd get into the program to begin with. What if I couldn't handle working full time?
I was scared. I knew that then but now,looking back I realized I was actually fearing all the worst: failing. I tricked myself into believing all these excuses I made for myself.
I missed a great chance. I realize that, now.
There's a quote I always remember when I feel a little scared with what's going on in my life.
I believed it to be true. I still do, to a point.
I think I need to take more risks. That everyone should take more risks. How else are we going to learn what we're good at, what we're absolutely terrible at, or how to make ourselves into a better person?
Live and learn!
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