A Hand to Hold

I had a fantastic idea for a post yesterday but in the mess that is my life on Mondays it got pushed to the bottom of the to do list.  This post is not that post, I'm saving that post for a day when I feel like it should be shared because though it's something I don't mind sharing I was feeling different feels than what I am today as I sit down and write; when you have a strong rush of feels you follow what they tell you to write, so that's what today's post is.

Landing back in Pinterest world I took a break from studying/writing all of my textbook/trying not get paper cuts from making notecards and I found myself scrolling through Doctor Who quotes.  Today is one of those days that I just scrolled through all the pins and didn't pin may of them because I'm just really tired and I feel like I'm barely functioning.  Then I came across this one:

"There's a lot of things you need to get across this universe.  Warp drive, wormhole refractors...you know the thing that you need most of all? A hand to hold."  - The Doctor

 I've learned many things from watching Doctor Who and this is one of them.  I may not be traveling across the universe yet but I get it.  I get that it's a bumpy and crazy ride with turns and dips all over the place with unexpected twists that make you think hard about what's going on this life.  Because this is life and though I'm not a universal traveler like the Doctor is, I can appreciate this as a human stuck on Earth.

It's a lonely ride without a hand to hold.  The times I blocked everyone out and granted no access to the real and unpolished Jess were the times I struggled the most with what I was going through in life.  I understand that it's a phase or a thing that people do as part of their personality but I'm under the impression that if I had believed there was actually someone there to hold my hand I wouldn't have struggled as much.

L and I were talking a couple weeks ago about how strange life is and where it takes each individual person.  We discussed how it's been an interesting year and a half since we graduated high school and how much we've changed and evolved as people.  I've gone through many mountainous terrains in my and I think the only thing that has kept me moving forward is that I have realized I do have a hand to hold on the ride.